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Hi, I'm Kim. I'm a little bit country, kinda crazy, but all heart, and some other girly stuff too. I prefer to spend the day in my underwear and hate wearing shoes. I travel.
~ Sunday, May 13 ~
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Crying

When you cry what do you think of?  What do you see?  What do you feel like doing?  Anything?  Obviously, there are thoughts about the subject that is making you shed those tears, but for me, there is always something else, something a little more angsty.  I always see myself doing something straight out of the life of a misunderstood fifteen-year-old.  I picture myself smashing glass plates and coffee mugs against the wall, chugging from a bottle of whiskey, charging out of the house and running until my legs no longer work.  I see myself acting on impulse but deny myself the satisfaction.  I just finish crying and plan my next trip to the climbing gym where I can use my passion to do something positive instead of cleaning up a broken mess.  I am, however, going to need to let go of these impulses at some point.  Maybe I should join a soccer league or see how fast I can run up a mountain.


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~ Wednesday, February 22 ~
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Oh, Hello There.

In my absence from the blogging world I have learned a thing or two about myself.  The first of these things being that I work too hard.  Some may see this as an advantageous quality, and to an extent it is, especially when noticed by important people, but one must know where to draw the line.  After dropping two jobs to focus solely on the third, I have found myself working for over a month straight.  Wait, I lied, I had two days of rest somewhere in there.  And if 8-hour days weren’t enough, I asked, out of my own free will, to work a week of 12-hour days full of voice exhaustion and one too many cuts.  Let’s throw in a couple of late nights, a few drinks, some country singing - like regular singing, only louder - a cigarette here and there, a movie in the sink, and an aerobics class that made my legs burn for days.  

I do so much just to prove that I can.  It’s almost like a goal I set for myself, and I’m not satisfied unless I come home to pass out with my clothes on and my teeth unbrushed.  Sounds similar to the goal of a drunk person, except a stumbling drunk dude/babe isn’t too picky about where he/she sleeps.  Well, after 37 straight days, my body finally said, “Ouch!”  I have been knocked off my feet for three days now, and I hate it.  I move from bed to chair to bathroom to bed.  Good thing my apartment is small, otherwise I would have to yell every time I needed my boyfriend to get something for me :P  

Hopefully day four will bring some strength with it, and I will be able to ride my bike to the bank to cash in those lovely checks people keep sending in the mail.  Those checks will keep coming if I continue to work the way I do, but in order to keep my health and my sanity I need to find a balance between work, more work, oh, and a little bit of play.  Let’s see if I can do it next time around.  Bring it on SXSW!  I’m ready!

Also, after several hours of surfing the web, I have come to learn that I like Taylor Swift better with bangs, I don’t enjoy really skinny models - where’s the meat?! - steak is delicious even in photographs, and some people take their love for flying dinosaurs to a whole new level.

(Source: ohhellothere)

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~ Friday, January 6 ~
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Parents

“If you’re loved by someone you’re never rejected.  Decide what to be and go be it.”

How many of you get the old, “So when are you going to start your career,” or ”Are you ever going to settle down and get a job that gives you health insurance,” from mom and dad?  Next time, before you roll your eyes and sigh, remember that your parents are not saying this to depress you or make you feel bad about yourself.  They are doing this because they think you are the greatest person in this entire universe!  They have watched you grow and transform into the individual you are today.  They will continue to watch you change and marvel at how different you are from year to year and how different you are from them.  This will never stop no matter how old we get.  We all want happiness, and we all have different ways of finding it.  Sometimes this is hard for parents and people in general to understand.  And, I will run the risk of sounding like that voice we all know and love, they just want what is best for you.  Truly, parents just want you to be happy, but it’s hard to let go of a time when they were the ones that made you so.

Don’t we all become our parents in the end anyways?  I took a Zumba class today at some gym that is way to expensive for me to join, but I looked in the mirror, and guess who I saw: my mom.  I saw her back in her Jazzercise days when she would take me and my brother to the gym and toss us in the childcare.  I was more interested in watching her than keeping an extra eye on Bobby.  Years later, even with her not around, I have still become her.  One way or another, I decided what I wanted to be and I’m it.  Well, not quite yet, I still have to be a mother.  I have just taken a different road to get there.

Tags: Parents Zumba Jazzercise Happiness Love
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~ Friday, November 11 ~
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Birds, and Other Yard Animals

Remember when you told me we had humming birds? I didn’t believe you and laughed when you bought those special flowers. (I planted them anyway.) One day while washing dishes I looked up only to see a green humming bird zipping around the flowers on the deck. I joined the side of the believers. I knew I was just as crazy as you. The boys were too, they just didn’t know it yet.

Even without you we are all still a little nutty. I started feeding squirrels. We are all still thankful too. I got to have you for 22 years :-)


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~ Thursday, October 27 ~
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White Walls, Wet Hugs, and A Night With No Alcohol

“You know, you should really keep an eye on your friend over there.  She keeps chasing stray dogs.”

I looked up off the trash littered street of the Cartagena market only to see that my new friend, Dave Ponce - Remember Dave guys?  And by “guys” I mean Stella - was absolutely correct.  Stella was wandering further away from the group calling to every scruffy animal she saw.  I believe we were all on our way to the street vendors for foot long hot dogs and the only place that sold beer after every shop and bar had closed.  Cartagena was hot.  I had to take a cold shower before bed every night, but Hostel Luna was just the place to do it.  It was a beautiful building with white walls, clean and at times echoey bathrooms, a small dipping pool in the courtyard, and a dance floor/party bar with a couple of shower heads on the roof.  If only I had my photos!  The hostel was in the middle of the old part of town filled with shady alleyways, even shadier people in those alleyways, and shop owners that would change the price of Smirnoff Ice every time we purchased it.  We were two blocks from the market which always smelled heavily of buttered bread and greasy food with a slight hint of piss since some Colombians would live at their booths for long periods of time.  I never felt threatened by the vendors, street people, prostitutes, and drug dealers I met in Colombia until they seated themselves behind the wheel of a car.  I felt more endangered by the cars with unheeded speedometers zooming down the streets of Cartagena than I did from anything else on the trip.  Despite all the “dangers” of the outside world we had a nice little family going inside of the hostel.  A family that enjoyed a sober night, against our will - Stel even tried to hornswoggle (yup, it’s a word) a beer at the Aussie restaurant - playing picture telephone in the courtyard.  We sat on the rooftop overlooking the city with perfect views of the gigantic castle and other ancient forts that had been transformed into expensive night clubs.  Stella and I enjoyed a day of pleasant architecture, photo taking, and shopping in the old town accompanied by a night out dancing to yet another reggae band.  I am still friends on facebook with a guy we met that night.  He said we were fun girls, and that he enjoyed the party :-)

Bobby and I also spent a few days couchsurfing on the other side of town, the wealthier side, which looked a bit of how I imagine Miami to look.  Our host, Erv, opened her doors to everyone, and we shared the space with a few other surfers.  I ended up spending the day at the beach with one, eating fruits,  playing in the waves, and sharing the stories of our lives.  I can’t even remember the man’s name, but smell of the beach will stay in my mind forever.  The new part of town was bright, clean, and equipped with kickball fields, parks, and large grocery stores.  The buses were decked out with colorful lights and patterned curtains, and people smiled when you crossed them in the street.  The mesmerizing thing about Cartagena, and Colombia in general, was the color.  There was color from the sky to the buildings, the bikinis on the beach, the fruit sold on corners, silly rubber watches sold in the market, taxi cabs, pastries in the panaderia, chairs in restaurants.  Everything was color.  It was a nice change of pace for a few days, livin’ large on the tenth floor of a building secured with a doorman, but Bobby and I missed our traveling unit.  

This situation would set the stage for months and now one whole year to follow.  The group never wanted to split up (maybe just take a break for a minute), but sometimes you have to go different ways.  Looking back on this trip makes me miss places and miss people even more.  I will most likely never travel like this again with Stella, Bobby, Matt, and Jon, but I know that there are four other people out there who have felt the same things I have felt, seen the same things I have seen, and can share the same memories we made together.

(Source: CartagenaColombia)

Tags: Cartagena Traveling Family Footlong Dogs
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~ Saturday, October 15 ~
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Five years…
It’s funny to think of how different or how completely the same me or my life could have been.  I do know one thing that would be different; the tears would be those of laughter.

Still lovin’ you Suzie Q. 

Five years…

It’s funny to think of how different or how completely the same me or my life could have been.  I do know one thing that would be different; the tears would be those of laughter.

Still lovin’ you Suzie Q. 


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~ Tuesday, October 4 ~
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Can’t wait for snow!

fuckyeahstreetlights:

not street lights idc its pretty 

Can’t wait for snow!

fuckyeahstreetlights:

not street lights idc its pretty 


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They just don’t make ‘em like they used to.  Ray Charles, come on!

Tags: Blues Brothers Illinois Nazis
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~ Tuesday, September 6 ~
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I Got a Better One

“Your star was crooked.  I got a better one.”

Some lady commented on the stamp that I gave her this weekend.  She also made it very clear in our two minute interaction that she knew more than I did or ever will.   What she doesn’t know is that if she continues to look for something better nothing will ever make her happy. 

Well lady, I like being crooked.  It makes life more exciting and entertaining.  So you can take your perfect, five-point star and shove it!

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